Livenews

I’ve been getting up at 6:30 for a while now. A while, no, that sounds better than what it really is. A bit more than a week now. Man, it feels like a lot longer. I’ve been getting up earlier and earlier, for about a month though. That already sounds better! Every morning, I make a little list of three things I want to get done for sure that day. No matter what else I do, if I do those three things, I had a good day. It’s made me study well, it’s made me tackle my administration (if you can call a big pile of unopened envelopes full of trouble ‘administration’), it’s just been making me do a lot of things I don’t feel like doing, but feel great once I do. There are many more things I’d like to do, but I am starting slow.

Why am I doing this. I am doing this because let’s face it, I can be pretty lazy. And I have this view of myself of starting and quitting too many things these past few years. This kind of got me scared of starting anything in the first place, which is both not smart and counterproductive. The thing is, If I could be lazy and actually enjoy it, I might just leave it at that. But I am not good at that. I’ve seen lazy people, being terribly happy doing what they’re doing (not doing) and I admire them, in a way. But it’s not for me, I get all kinds of Calvinistic guilt, all kinds of ‘you’re wasting your life’ feelings. And that has made me terribly down, more than I’d care to admit. This is why I am trying to change bits and pieces in my day to day life.

Why like this. Because of an article in Time Magazine, which had a list of the 25 best blogs in the world. One of them was ZenHabits.net. I’ve been reading this site for maybe a year or something from time to time, and early January, I decided to do something with it. Not everything on this website is for me (I would rather cut all my toenails way too short than become a vegan, and I am not trying to de-stress my life, I am actually looking to stress it a little bit), but I like the ideas on many points.

Why am I writing all this down. For one, I haven’t really told a lot of people about this, because I have been feeling a little stupid and self-helpy, and I now decided that there is no need for that. Also, because I am afraid that this is something I’ll do now and quit again, so I thought it better not to tell, so only myself and a few others know of my newest failure I’ve now decided this is silly too. I also decided to write about it because I am a little proud of the beginning I made, and I am aware that this is only a beginning. Maybe writing about it can help me to keep going.

In the words of the late George Carlin: ‘I have no ending for this, so I’ll just take a bow.’