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Archive for May, 2008
Mistake.
May 29th
The choice to move to Holland this year to study Communication- en Information Studies has been a mistake. No matter how this might influence my future for the good, or how many revelations I might encounter later because of it, I shouldn’t have done this.
When I was in Milan last year, still working fulltime, I realized I wanted to study again. Journalism seemed like a great idea, but I wasn’t even allowed in the pre-masters, since my bachelor’s degree was in a completely different field. So I ended up studying what I am studying today. To summarize, I feel like I realized back then I had an itch on my back, and I thought just scratching my back randomly somewhere would make it go away. I now see I have been scratching in the wrong place.
This year has been difficult for more reasons than I want to write about, yet the number one reason is obvious: being away from the love of my life. Next to that, it has been extremely difficult to work at university for courses that I know I will never in my whole life give a shit about. Ever. Yes, it’s had good sides. I’ve been able to get back in touch properly with my friends and brother, and I’ve created a sort of normal life again. But if I count the moments of loneliness, of anger, of doubt, of sadness, I should’ve made a different decision. What I should have done, I can’t answer. All I know is that for the first time in my life I realize I have made a wrong big decision. Now I can only hope that I will learn from it.
Don’t get me wrong, I am finishing what I started. I just felt like answering a question only I have been asking.
Why I lived in Barcelona
May 14th
24 hours from now my plane will land in Amsterdam. Last weeks here in Barcelona have been unbelievable great, and I’ve got this mixed feeling: I’m happy to go back, but I’m sad to leave.
Almost four years ago, I visited Barcelona for the first time. Just one day, together with friends (including Niels). At the end of that day, while watching the fountains in Montjuic (now my backyard), I decided to live in Barcelona once. Tomorrow exactly 1 year and 4 months ago, Niels and me moved here. I had three personal objectives: learn spanish, learn to play guitar and do sports. Haha. The last thing never happened, of course. My spanish didn’t improve in the first six months, but now (especially the last months) I can say that I speak Spanish. Not fluently, but good enough to have conversations. And then the guitar – that has been a success. I enjoy it a lot.
But I got a lot more from Barcelona. I made new friends, and experienced another way of life. Ah, the Barcelona life. The people in this city managed to create a society that doesn’t scare me. A society that I actually want to be part of. Of course BCN has his bad sides. It’s very easy here to just party and don’t care about the rest of the world, for example. And it’s expensive to rent an appartment. But in total, this city is the greatest in Europe. That’s of course just my humble opinion.
Since I’m leaving now, I’m going to miss everybody here. Some Australian, Dutch, Spanish, Catalan and a hundred Venezuelan friends. Yvell and Hieke, my flatmates, where amazing. They made the transition very smooth after Niels left, and continued to give magic to this appartment. I’ve been really happy here.
On the other hand: I’ve got a lot of things to look forward to. I’m going to move to Utrecht, in an appartment with Tom and (once again) Niels! Really nice… Also, it will be nice to spent more time in Holland than just one week. To have time with all the nice people that I know there. And of course, the weather. HAHAHAHA. No really. Holland is beating Barcelona weather for over a week already. It’s crazy! Now let’s hope it will continue this summer…
So – adios and hallo.
Yes!
May 4th
YES YES YESSSSS! I think it’s the first time ever since those weather-things came on LiveNews that the weather in Holland is beating the weather in Barcelona! Ha!
Take that, Ewout!
